For months you've been focused on writing your
dissertation. You've made scientific sense of several years of
research data, pulled your results into nifty figures, and gone
through several drafts of narrative. You've spent days checking the
accuracy of the figures, the formatting of the references, and the
spelling. For months, even years, your work has been driven by the
anticipation of that magical moment when you realize that your
dissertation is ready for submission to your examiners'
committee.
That moment, when it comes, isn't always magical. That's partly
because it's the start of a big transition in your scientific
career, and big transitions are hard. And it's partly due to the
nature of the transition: less final triumph, more ambiguous
denouement. Making it through, and, importantly, coming away with a
feeling of closure, a sense of fulfillment, and some enthusiasm for
the next challenge means dealing with lots of annoying distractions
and carefully traversing some uneven emotional ground.
Along with some happy feelings, "all [Ph.D. students] experience
a kind of a letdown ... about that feeling of this big project not
being there anymore," says psychologist Mary McKinney.
Revisions
Handing your thesis off to your examination committee can be
satisfying, but it's just one step of many before graduation. "I
did not feel finished at all after submitting the thesis because I
still had to do the public defense, followed by [the] editing of
the final thesis for publication," writes Eric Seales, now a life
scientist at a biotech start-up in Birmingham, Alabama, in an
e-mail toScienceCareers.
The importance of the final defense--or “viva voce examination,”
as it's called in the United Kingdom--varies across
countries and institutions and with it the likelihood of unpleasant
surprises on defense day. Outright failures are rare, but revisions
are nearly inevitable. And that means stress.
I "was slightly worried ... that the corrections required to
pass would be substantial," Tania Hansen, an Australian Ph.D. now
doing a postdoc in cardiovascular sciences at the University of
Leicester in the United Kingdom, writes in an e-mail
toScienceCareers. Her concern "was compounded by my leaving
the country, as once your examiners report comes in you only have a
limited time ... to make the changes, otherwise your thesis has to
be re-examined," continues Hansen, who received a passing
notification with minor revisions the day after she arrived in the
United Kingdom to begin her postdoc. She had an electronic copy of
her thesis, and all her raw data, packed in her luggage. "I ... got
a friend in Australia to print out new copies, get them bound, and
hand them in for me."
Major revisions can be a big emotional setback because they come
at a time when you feel as though you're finished. "When there are
fairly major revisions to do, that's extremely ... difficult
because you have already run the race but you have to keep
running," says Mary McKinney, a clinical psychologist who runs her
own counseling practice for academics in Chapel Hill, North
Carolina. "There is no motivation for this period because you have
already passed." This may generate some frustration and bad
feelings, especially if you think your supervisor should have
anticipated the revisions or don't agree with the examiners'
verdict. "Bite your tongue, don't say angry things," McKinney says.
"Channel that anger into your computer or your lab experiments and
get it done."
Even when revisions are minimal, they can still cause pain.
"Fortunately, my committee did not require any changes," Seales
says. But the graduate school administration required formatting
and grammatical corrections that took several weeks. "I can assure
you that this process will be much more of a headache and take much
longer than you anticipate."
Pulled in two (or more) directions
Most Ph.D. students have a job lined up well in advance of
graduation day, and moving out of the lab takes work. Many young
scientists feel split between their Ph.D. obligations--making
revisions, cleaning their lab space, or writing those last few
papers--and their new job.
"I accepted my postdoc 6 months before I defended, but I didn't
start my new job until 2 weeks after my defense," Rebecca wrote on
the
Science Careers forum . But she had other obligations. "The
biggest professional challenge was training the postdoc who was
taking over my project, categorizing my lab notebooks and freezer
stocks, and cleaning out my desk, while trying to fix my thesis at
the same time."
Hansen, too, was pulled in several directions as she moved from
Australia to the United Kingdom. It "was a big personal challenge.
There was also a whole lot of administration hassles with my new
job before I started, which was a nightmare." She also took a
retail job after submitting her dissertation, which "focused my
attention away from my thesis as I focused on getting ready to
leave the country for my new job," she says. "By the time I started
my first job, I had not been in the lab for over 6 months ... and
had to reorientate myself on how to do things ... and get used to
thinking again."
Mixed feelings
The home stretch to graduation brings a blend of emotions.
"Finishing was just a relief as the whole writing process had been
dragging on for ages," Hansen says. But she also felt a little
"deflated," she adds. "No one really made a big deal about it, and
that disappointed me." A sense of anticlimax is common, McKinney
says. Along with some happy feelings, "all [Ph.D. students]
experience a kind of a letdown ... about that feeling of this big
project not being there anymore," she says. As Rebecca put it on
theScienceCareers forum, "I think after defending and then
rushing to make the required changes to meet the graduate school's
format, I was more relieved to have it finished than anything --
but I didn't feel the rush of emotion and accomplishment that I
expected."
During this transition phase, there's likely to be some
emptiness and loneliness, too. "During that time, the only science
contact I had was my fiancé, who was still doing his Ph.D. ... I
felt like I had submitted and everyone had forgotten who I was,"
Hansen says. Outside the lab, too, it might be necessary to work at
reestablishing a social life. "When I had spare time, I initially
didn't know what to do," Todd Graham, a master's graduate who is a
research associate in a diagnostics start-up in central New Jersey,
wrote on theScienceCareers forum.
Sometimes, unsettling psychological issues surface once the
weight of the thesis lifts. "The greatest professional/personal
challenge I faced during this time was purely psychological,"
Seales says. He "had to deal with the letdown, the frustration and
anger, of realizing that after years of hard work and sacrifice to
earn my degree, that that Ph.D. didn't qualify me in any way to go
out and get a good-paying 'real' job," he says. "The only way I
overcame this feeling was when I left my academic postdoc less than
a year into it and secured an industry job."
Hansen's experience was less traumatic, but some anxiety
remained. "I don't remember it as a horrific time of uncertainty.
Just something that is still hanging over your head when you think
about it."
Above all, it's an excellent time for a vacation, Rebecca wrote
on theScienceCareers forum. "Definitely take some time off
between finishing and starting your next job." But don't head off
before the i's are dotted, the t's are crossed, and the
dissertation is off to the binders. "Finish the changes needed for
your thesis ... while you are still motivated to get it done," she
continued. "Once you're in your new job, the last thing you will
want to do is look at your thesis any more!"
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Photos. Top: Rhea Borja. Middle, bottom: courtesy of the
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DOI: 10.1126/science.caredit.a0800059
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